Wednesday, November 24, 2010

nope, don't remember.

a valid excuse, in my book.

So, have you ever heard of the dude who killed his mother-in-law and wife in his sleep? Let me clarify-- a study I did in one of my psychology courses during college was on a gentleman who sleep-walked to his garage then sleep-drove to his mother-in-law's house, stabbed her to death, then sleep-drove back to his house and stabbed his wife to death then went back to bed. He was tried in court for homocide but the case didn't hold up because psychologists and his lawyers were able to prove that he did all of this in his sleep, thus, had neither the intention to kill nor any recollection of the night's events.

I tell this story because there have been many instances where I would do or say things in my slumber and not remember them at all. Well, I'm not exactly completely in my deepest REM cycle but close enough I guess. For example, apparently, early this morning I spoke to both my father and my boyfriend on the phone and exchanged a substantial amount of chatter. At 1pm today, my father brought something up that he said and I have no recollection of it. Now that they mention it, I vaguely remember the conversation being held but by no means can I give an accurate account of what was said. I've also responded in full sentences to questions asked by my roommates and woke up not remembering having had any interaction with them.

I'm not saying I'm going to go out and kill people in my sleep (you have to be all sorts of messed up to be able to do that and not wake up in the middle of it) but this sort of slumber-behavior, if you will, scares me. I feel like I'll get into a lot of trouble one day for saying/doing something in a less than conscious state that I won't remember... but I guess if the courts will excuse a murder, my friends and family will find it in their hearts to excuse me as well.

On that note, Happy Thanksgiving all; don't do anything stupid in your food-coma state.

Cheers,

Cheryl

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

day 28.

a picture of you last year and now; how have you changed since?

towards the end of 2009:



towards the end of 2010:



Hmm.. I don't really think I changed all that much looks-wise. Maybe gained/lost a few pounds here and there; my weight fluctuates a lot. Oh, my haircolor is slightly different? My skin may look better because I've been taking care of it more than I used to? Maybe I look more mature too? Molla. *EDIT- I know!!! I've actually stopped wearing eyeliner/shadow when I go out. At first it was because the BF didn't like it and also because it was such a hassle 'cus I suck at applying make-up but people have told me I look better without it so WA-LA! An eyeliner-free Cheryl has been born in 2010.

Yippee skippee doo-da.

quick thought #24.

i miss the days when just simple flip-phones were cool.

sick of smartphones.

Monday, November 15, 2010

days 25-27.

what would i find in your bag?

Currently, in my bag is my wallet, 2 blackberries (work and personal), lip balm, keys, a mini moleskin notebook, The Girl Who Kicked the Hornet's Nest, orbit gum, camera, hair clip, and a golf tee (not a tee-shirt, but the thing you place your ball on when you tee-off).

what do you think about your friends?

Tall 'A' is my other half, short 'A' is indescribable with words, 'J' truly has a special place in my heart, 'L' is forever and always my favorite, and M, the other J, E, and S are my biddies for life. The other 'S' is still a work in progress but I like her. ;)

why are you doing this 30-day challenge.

Why not? Doing stuff like this is good for reflection and in general, fun to do!

Friday, November 12, 2010

back to day 15.

put your ipod on shuffle; first 10 songs that play.

When a Man Loves a Woman - Marvin Gaye
Anytime - Brian McKnight
Sashileun - JYP
Good Life - Drunken Tiger
8282 - Davichi
Na Dohlaga - JYP
Let's Get In On - Marvin Gaye
A Whole New World - Aladdin
Journey Feat. Casker - LeeSsang
Intro - G.O.D. 1st Album

Hmmm.. I swear my iPod is more diversified than this.... maybe not =X 2 songs by Marvin Gaye and 2 songs by JYP... hmmm... maybe it's time for an update?

day 24.

a letter to your parents.

Dear Mama and Daddy,

You are now defined by 50 years of life, 24 years of married life, 2 beautiful kids (hehe), and an infinite number of memories blessed by love, faith, and strength. I know I'm supposed to say things like this because you are my parents and I should respect and admire you both by default, but really, the two of you are very special and truly a match made in heaven. I'm trying to be objective here, so believe me when I say, you are quite possibly the most awesome parents AND people I know (many of my friends can testify to this!). I am grateful I inherited Mommy's beauty and Daddy's personality (HAHAHA!). I really could not have asked for more wonderful parents. I hope I have made you proud and brought you as much happiness as you have to me. There are great things in store for my future and that is all due to you and the person you have raised me to be. I'd rather die than let you down, so please continue to have faith in me. I only wish and pray I could do half the job you did in love and in life.

I love you both so much and would like to take this time to wish you a happy 50th birthday AND happy anniversary as well!

Love,

Jinjin

thought bunches.

I must get my braces taken off, STAT.

It really IS the little things. A little here, a little there and we're all smiles. :)

I am scared I'm gonna get kicked in the face one day by one of those carriage-ride horses in Central Park.

Tostitos with salsa and salsa con queso is so addicting omgaw.

Every time I look at my drab self in the mirror at work, I wish I was all dressed up and looking fabulous.

Sometimes, I feel so bad for my puppy I want to cry. I'm a horrible dog-owner.

My boyfriend really is ridiculously goodlooking (sorry).

Thursday, November 11, 2010

autumn's-a-going.

and i don't have a camel coat.

The color only describable as "camel," and most appropriately so, is the color executed to the fullest by the Italians roaming the streets of Rome and Milan during fall 2010. I have been yearning to get my hands on just the perfect camel coat for quite some time now. Alas, autumn is shedding her leaves all over my lawn in preparation for a rendez-vous with freezing temperatures and with it, snow, and I still don't have this particular item in my closet. Geez-louise what's a girl to do?

On another note, I discovered the most beautiful, classy yet badass, raccoon-fur, collared vest with pockets at Atrium last weekend. I became one with the oversized beaut as soon as I put it on. My boyfriend mentioned how my socks were peeking through the slit between my heels and skinny jeans and how this was an ultimate fashion faux-pas only committed by the ignorant in Chinatown, but who cares when you have raccoons keeping you warm? I can't be bothered with such trivial things.

I haven't shopped in a while. I need some outerwear. I get paid tomorrow. Now, let me ask you, do the previous three statements have any correlation? I think so.

Cheers,

Cheryl

(reminder to self: winter is approaching; get your short mink coat to the tailor NOW.)

day 23.

something you crave for a lot.

I'm assuming this is referring to something edible but I'm not even going to go there because then this post will be 3 pages long. What I am currently, at this very moment, this immediate second, craving for is some bossam, cheesecake, and lovin' from the BF (he's in Miami on business again T.T).

To be completely honest, the thing I crave for the most is attention and some TLC.

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

day 22.

what makes you different from everyone else?

This is also a dumb-ass question; everyone is different because they are themselves and unlike anyone else, duh. I will attempt to coherently elaborate. I once heard something along the lines of "be yourself because everyone else is already taken." I don't remember who said this but I think it was a quote that I might've read off of someone's Facebook whilst engaging in some hardcore Facebook-stalking. I've never forgotten it since.

I like to think I'm different because I try so hard to be myself. I really do. I refuse to be like others just because it's comfortable or convenient and I hesitate before agreeing with the majority because the question I ask myself is always, "is this what you think or are you going along with everyone else?" This constant effort at self-reflection is what I think makes me different from others. It's hard because sometimes I feel almost forced by myself to commit to who Cheryl Kim is and also because I know sometimes I should just shut up and go along with certain things and also because I feel like I justify a lot of things I do or say with my personal logic and thinking, but at the end of the day, I sleep better knowing I've just been myself. I like to think I'm in-tune with who I am, some may disagree and say I'm blind and biased but I'm trying...

What would Cheryl do?

This is the recurring question my mind is always asking...

I really am trying my best to just be me. Isn't that alone enough to make me different?

(sorry, this has been a lot of word-vomit and it may not make sense to some, but it makes a helluvalot sense to me... hmmm...)

days 18 - 21.

plans/dreams/goals you have.

plans, dreams, goals: I don't know that I want to delve into this one. How does one answer a question like this? It'll probably take numerous conversations to detail my plans, dreams, and goals-- a blog posting definitely doesn't suffice, that's for sure. I mean, I'm sure if I really put my mind to it, I can consolidate the three of these rather complex topics into one seemingly simple sentence but I don't feel right subjecting my personal plans, dreams, and goals to that sort of injustice. Does that make sense? I don't care; I'm actually bothered that this question is in here so carelessly...

nicknames you have; why do you have them?

jinjin, cherbear, shurl, schwul, tiger, etc.

My family calls me "jinjin" because my cousin couldn't pronounce my Korean name when she was younger so that's what she called me and now that's what everyone calls me. My friends call me "cherbear" or "shurl" or "schwul" because they love me, pwahaha. My boyfriend calls me "tiger" because he says that I look like a baby tiger when I wake up in the morning. I don't know... but I like it. :)

someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future.

To be honest, at age 23, I didn't think I would be considering marriage already, but I am. The man in question is obviously the person I am currently dating.

a picture of something that makes you happy.



This one is difficult. So many captured moments make me happy. Well, I don't think "happy" is the right word. They make me smile. Take Exhibit A above for example, the two pictures are of my friend, Jiin Yi. I haven't seen her in several months but she visited NYC for her birthday this past weekend and we had a blast (evidently, she definitely did :D). Jiin is one of the sweetest, warmest, strongest, most genuine people I know. This girl lights up a room and it is rare that you would find anyone speaking ill of her. She's an effing rockstar and these pictures of her make me smile on the outside and on the inside. Here's another picture that made me smile today:

Our offices had a bedbug scare a few days ago and we have been closed for extermination. The picture above is of one of the partner's offices. The other partner, thought it would be funny to freak her out a bit and place that sign across her door. Knowing that we could find humor in this icky situation also makes me smile. :D

Friday, November 5, 2010

days 15-17.

put your ipod on shuffle; first 10 songs that play.

I don't have my iPod on me. I'll come back to this one.

another picture of yourself.


someone you'd want to switch lives with for a day and why.

I'd like to NOT switch lives with anyone if that's alright, but I guess if I HAD to then I'd switch lives with Song Hye-gyo because I'd like to know what it's like to be the prettiest Korean woman on earth and what it's like to date one of the hottest Korean men on earth (Hyun Bin).
(My bad for zipping through these; I haven't had the luxury of bloggin daily lately...)

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

day 14.

a picture of you and your family.

Kim Family Golf Outing.

Mama Kim's Birthday (with JJ!).


Gangster Grandmamas.

day 13.

a letter to someone who has hurt you recently.

Dear You,

You probably didn't do it intentionally (I hope), but it hurt. It was nothing big and I may just be being sensitive, but it hurt. I love you and cherish our friendship so that's probably why it hurt as much as it did. I know friendships come and go and they falter and build-up, but ours is one that I have tremendous faith in, so to think that perhaps ours is just like all the others was painful. Hopefully you feel the same way as I do about our friendship and hopefully I am as special to you as you are to me. You know me well enough to understand why what you did and said hurt me so I won't bring it up because our connection is strong like that, right? I hope so. We've been through too much shit to let anything get in between us and the honesty we have in our friendship is something I will never give up.

Love,

Me

Monday, November 1, 2010

days 11-12.

another picture of you and your friends.




how you found out about blogspot and why you made one.
I don't recall how I found out about Blogspot, but I made one my senior year of college because a a diary just didn't suffice because I hated the way my handwriting looked and did a terrible job at keeping up with my diary. We live in an e-world; paper and pen just didn't cut it anymore.